~CaptVampire

I don't even know where to start... I only come on DA to complain about my boyfriend because this is the only place he doesn't really know exists so he can't read what I write about him. I found out last week that I was not accepted into university so natually, I'm feeling pretty worthless since I was so looking forward to it. I'm all depressed because it was Art, the ONLY thing I'm good at so now I feel like I can't do anything. And Chris has been annoying me for weeks repeating the word "nigger" over and over and over and over and over!!!!! He thinks he's so funny but he's driving me CRAZY! I want to punch him in the face everytime he does that! So today, he made me meet him at work because he had a proposision. He said that he would stop saying that word if I would try applying to school again/look into job opportunities. I got pretty upset with him because I HAVE been doing that for the past couple days. It's just hard for me when I'm feeling the way I am. Anyways... so I'm on the computer now, ready for apply for another program but something on the site is confusing me. The program I want on the U of O website is not listed on the application website... So all I wanted was a little help from him and I get "Is this going to take long? I can do it if it's only a couple seconds but if it's a couple minutes, I can't"... A COUPLE MINUTES?! He can't spare me a couple minutes to help me do something HE wanted me to do!?!? What a jerk!!! Drinking in the backyard with his friends is SOOOO much more important than me. I want to hit him so hard in his stupid face his head spins but I can't! And it's killing me! He pisses me off so much because I know that he's not going to stop saying "that word" and bugging me with it because he knows I hate it. ERRRR! He's such an asshole sometimes! I could kill him!