I was in the kitchen talking to my boyfriend, and I was unfortunate enough to watch him have a siezure for the first time.
We were having a serious conversation but then he just stopped talking and then it broke my heart.

The best way to describe it is... he looked like a child, innocent and oblivious to the world and himself. He was looking at me with his nice big eyes. His eyes were moving really fast, and so were his lips but he wasn't talking. It was like he'd forgotten how to talk... or maybe never learned and he was mimicing what he saw adults do... (if he were a child)
Then he started to cupped his hands and held them out to me, like he wanted me to give him something.
I looked down at his hands, then back up to his face to realize that his eyes were following mine and he too was looking at his hands.
Then suddenly, his head dropped and he started to drool. It looked like he was dead for a moment. I wanted to reach out and hold him, but I know he doesn't like to be touched or talked to after he has a siezure...
I suddenly felt awful... sick to my stomach and I could think of nothing to say...
It felt like it lasted a while... but it was probably only about 30 seconds to a minute...

I wonder... what it feels like to him. If he can watch what he's doing, and just not control it... or if he forgets who he is and what he's doing...
I think most likely the first one...
Does it hurt?